It took me a long while in life to find my place. I've had a few awkward phases, to say the least.... in fact, those closest to me would probably say that I exists permanently in an awkward phase, though I am better for it I'm sure. But, regardless of my quirks and imperfections, I have found my "tribe." The people who appreciate my frankness, and honesty and who seek me out knowing that I will be honest and loyal and fair (and apparently stubborn too), always and to a fault.
This past year has been a tough one. As a group, and individually we have faced some pretty wild challenges. You never really know until you are in the tight places how people will respond, whether or not the relationships you have built in the "good times" will weather the more difficult ones... And I think often people are forced to face hard truths in these situations, learning not just about the strength of your own being, but of those closest to you too.
When I say that I am blessed in friendship, I am not exaggerating. Nothing less than Godly intervention could create the love and support I have seen this past year. To have a friend (friends) who know your challenges... for me, it is a constant fight with infertility and all the "joys" that go with... and aren't afraid to ask the difficult questions and who check in with you sometimes DAILY just because.
These are the people who snap chat ridiculous pictures of themselves and their kids just to brighten your day... and who will take your call when you are sobbing and hyperventilating because a squirrel ate through your plumbing. And, on occasion, I am proud to BE the friend who can "take charge, and get things done with out stress" too. (though I'm still not sure that isn't code for bossy and obnoxious...) ;)
Anyhow, I hope that I can look back to these moments, even to this post... in the moments when I am struggling, as a reminder. Because we all need reminders, constant touches that let us know that we are not alone as we work to climb the mountains that life puts in our path.
And for the moments when I do forget... My mom gave me this "saying" for Christmas last year... and I keep it where I will see it and read it every single day. (this is a nice way of saying that I keep it in the bathroom, right next to the toilet!)
Feel free to hang the picture of my toilet, next to your toilet for inspiration if that helps.
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